Six Weeks

As of today, my mom has been gone for six weeks. Since the funeral I have been super busy, with not a lot of free time to let my mind wander or think of anything but work. This is a rare weekend off, and I'm enjoying being at home. However, the down side is the realization that hits you like a ton of bricks out of nowhere...it takes your breath away, and leaves a sick, sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach: when you walk by a picture, or some reminder, or think of a funny story you want to tell, and your heart slaps you upside the head, and reminds you that person is gone...gone forever. I guess time will heal everything, and really, I haven't had much time to grieve for the loss of my mom.

With that said, I have wanted to write this particular blog since mom's funeral, because it is in a trying time such as that, that you realize how very much your family means to you. I am speaking of my mom...we all love our mothers and fathers. But I am also speaking of my brother, my sisters, my nieces and nephews and their families, my children and grandchildren, and my dad. I can't imagine how his heart feels, losing the woman he was married to for 61 years. I hurt for him.

I have the most awesome family in this entire world, which I sometimes take for granted. I think we all do to some degree. You think they will always be around, and sometimes maybe you don't let them know that you love them, and you don't really see or take the time to appreciate the person they are inside.

So to all of my family members who read this: I love you. I am so fortunate to have you as a part of my life. Thank you for all you do, thanks for being so strong, so loving, and so caring in this time of great loss for all of us. As time heals our hurts and pains, let's remember that we still have each other, and share a common bond.

These are the people I'm talking about:

Adrienne, George, Jade, Jaimee, Jordin, Rob
Tyler and Abby
Nicol
Dad
Michael
Marilyn
Tootie
Nick, Shelby, Katie
James, Cheryl, Ian, Garrett, Camden
Christie, Ricky, Jagger, Jalee
Jared, Glenda, Dustin, Dylan

To mom: we all love you and miss you very much.